It’s summer time & all I can do is hope that this break will lead to a better year.
Okay, so I know that I really struggle with other people thinking they’re better than me. I choose not to flaunt my talents because I don’t ever want people to feel bad about themselves, but sometimes people walk all over me because of that. I feel the need to impress people as to show them that they are not superior to me. That leads a lot of decisions I make. That’s one of the things that’s making me really unhappy, because I’m not always the perfect person, & I can’t always keep people from thinking I’m inferior. Actually, I usually can’t. But I realized that I can’t fail my parents either. I try so hard to be the perfect child, but I’m always doing something wrong. I can’t be everything. But I feel like its never enough.
Maybe we actually can make a difference in people’s lives, even if we don’t realize it. The bad times are so worth it, if we use our experiences to help others. Everything, the good & the bad, are gifts from God.
so.
Is it possible to be single your whole entire life? I need a boy who isn’t a weirdo. Is that too much to ask? My creeper’s at it again. He picked me flowers, I thought they were from micah, but they smelled bad so I threw them away.. I felt so bad but I don’t anymore. anyways, I rock because I’ve consistently posted once a month. Instead of the once a day that I meant. 2012 isn’t as great as I thought it would be. On the bright side, I got 3 shirts, a sweater, & pearl earrings today on my shopping trip with Lauren. I miss her. It’s great when we get to talk. It seems like things are going really well for her & I’m so glad. She deserves it. Toodles til next month.
Well I fail at this.. It’s January 20th & my first blog of the year. In the first week of this year, I started playing guitar, got a fish (it died but I got a new one) got an iPhone, & found out that I’m going to New York for my birthday! Best week ever. Oh, & Chris and I are friends again. I’m not going to just sit & think about what I wish I could be. I’m going to make it happen. No more fear of failure.
I dread this night every year. Big parties, resolutions, new beginnings. It stresses me out because I feel like I have to know exactly what I want to accomplish this year. But I don’t. I can start over every single day if I want. No single day is any more of a milestone than any other. I think new years is such a big deal because people are so unhappy with their lives. We want more more more, all the time. The last year was never good enough. We say goodbye, (insert year here), glad to see you go. My resolution this year isn’t to see how much better I can become, it’s to appreciate the life I’ve already got. So, what did 2011 bring in my life? What stands out the most is losing one of my best friends, because of dumb things we both did. Pride, maybe. A lot has changed without him. My great aunt Millie died. She was an incredible person, & I bet she is having a great time up in Heaven with her husband. I got a tumblr, & a twitter! Nina & I have gotten a lot closer. Courtney & I have grown apart. I started watching friends. I’ve gotten through 7 seasons so far. I love it. I was asked to homecoming in the cutest way possible. I’ve made some new friends. We went to Wisconsin this summer. I tutored over the summer & realized that some day I would like to be a teacher. I started volunteering for little saints, & I absolutely love it. I have grown a lot in my faith. I tried getting bangs, & they were absolutely horrible. Katherine & I did the wreck this journal & I got this is not a book for Christmas. I dropped my iPod in the toilet. It’s working now. We went to Chicago. Rhonda, Dale, & Maddie moved to Philadelphia. At recital, I fell during my lyrical dance, & my foot swelled up like crazy & I couldn’t walk for a week. I got my wisdom teeth removed. I realized that I don’t like people that think they’re better than everyone else. I went to Minneapolis for yearbook & won an award. Our football team won state. Diamonds won a bunch of awards at band competitions. I didn’t read or write as much as I would have liked to. Time flies.
Movies: harry potter 7 part 2. I can’t believe its over. The social network. I didn’t see many movies this year…
Music: Adele. Foster the people. Mumford & sons. Mac miller.
TV: Psych, always. Friends. Gossip girl. Modern family. Pretty Little Liars. New Girl.
Books: Hunger Games. Nineteen Minutes. The happiness project (which I’m still not done with.)
I think that’s it! Adios, 2011. I won’t forget you.
